Pity me not, for I am different

I've been finding lately that other people struggle with the idea that one would choose to be single and see it as a lifestyle choice. This frustrates me no end. I know they mean well with their sympathetic yet condescending and unnecessary condolences, but I find it all quietly infuriating.

I may be alone, but please hear me loud and clear: I am certainly not registering for the lonely hearts club. Renee Zellweger's godawful portrayal of Bridget Jones is no yardstick, my friend.

It can be very difficult for some to accept that I do not crave relationships on that level. They wish for me to be happy like they are, but they cannot understand that I am happy like I am. I have a different mindset and emotional needs. It's a very personal and individual thing.

I have all the love that I require, and a rock solid emotional independence that can only come from kicking it on your own. It's an empowering kind of freedom and there is nothing quite like it!

Dreaming sharks. Again.

Swimming in murky, shark-infested waters I felt suitably threatened, however when I reached the small marshy island and scrambled ashore - I was more afraid. There was already someone there. Somebody that I used to know.

I knew what to do. With one hefty push, he was in the muddy shallows. I pulled up stumps and floated my little island downstream.

When it comes to the crunch

"At all points in time you are either growing, or you are dying - it's your choice."

- T Harv Eker

Welcome Reality

There is a lot happening right now.
Today I am feeling really good. Amazing, even.

Yesterday I had that wake up call that can happen when you think you're killing it, but someone slaps you across the face and you come to the shocking realisation that in fact - things are kind of shit. I am so thankful for this.

I'm going through a massive growth phase right now and know everything that has happened up until this moment has led me to be right here, right now, ready for what's next. And what's next is big.

Track 12

Screw MSTRKFRAFT, I'll be front and centre screaming for NERO!



How did I miss this on previous listens of the album?

The Ignorant Species

"Homosexuality is found in 450 species around the world. Homophobia however, is only found in one."

- copied from a friend's status on facebook

Music's got me feeling so free!

Overplayed indeed and their other songs grossly underrated in comparison, but this an ultimate feel-good moment.

We're gonna celebrate!

:)

C'mon!

I'm fair excited about Parklife this weekend, it's not a secret. I haven't gotten loose with my friends for over three months now which amplifies my excitement tenfold. I can't wait to drink out of a cardboard Red Bull cup and have an Alpine Fine. Dirty habits die hard, it's a festival-only thing nowdays.


Here's something to help you get in the mood -

Loud Noises

All I did was pick up one of the 'power cushions' she was selling and immediately I am disarmed by her soft European accent:

"You are not very quiet on the inside"

This is rather apparent. I am not very quiet on the outside, no surprises.
Yet her comment still caught me off-guard. Another amongst the cacaphony.

Happy Monday!

You read right, Happy Monday. The two words are not mutually exclusive! If for you they are, perhaps it's time to look at changing your attitude?

My suggestion is to start with a great song - such as this one!

Admittedly the content is a little dark but I guess if the strangely uplifting vibe doesn't pick you up, you'll at least get a little perspective!

Thoughts.

+ Sunday Night's story on Surf Life Saving Australia's negligibility with regards to the tragic death of Saxon Bird seemed quite one-sided in my opinion. Such is standard fare for tabloid trash journalism, I know. I'm not discounting SLSA's responsibility and culpability by any means, I just believe they were vilified in the typically shameful fashion of such 'Current Affairs' shows. Such a sad and unnecessary loss. RIP Saxon Bird.

+ As for the 'Nim Experiment' - disturbing much?! What I find even more horrifying is that we are continuing to train further chimps in captivity to have human-like qualities. I admit that I do find it terribly fascinating, yet it's another prime example that the human race's meddling with nature has gone too far.

+ Speaking of the 'Human Race' - doesn't this term speak volumes in its own right? Doesn't it imply that we are all in fact, one race?

+ It's only six sleeps until Parklife! It's definitely a good thing that I no longer live on the coast as my current levels of excitement would render me a complete pushover should I be tempted to have a big night!

+ I failed on my pledge to have an alcohol free weekend, yet I still spent less than $10 and escaped any hangovers so all is forgiven.

+ I wish I wore sunscreen on my driver's arm today.


Happy Sunday night, hope everyone has had a beautiful weekend!

What would you attempt if you knew you couldn't fail?

Enough said.



(Taken from the movie Facing The Giants)

Because I'm that excited about Parklife!

Nero - Promises



Loving their album Welcome Reality


Nero actually clash with MSTRKRFT. Total suckfest! I'm just going to see how I feel on the day. Nero is just a DJ set, although they did bring their vocalist out. They are also rumoured to be touring Aus again soon so I will factor this into my decision. Like I said, I'm just going to see how I feel on the day!

Shiny new blog!

Kind of.

I'm about to let you know that I have a blog that you are able to locate and read. I don't really know why I do this, you will most probably find my writing here a little inconsistent (both in frequency and content) however I just feel compelled to post regardless. I know my blog would be more successful if it had some conversational direction or at least made chronological sense, but I just like writing in this way. I suppose it is all about me, right?

So here we are, here's my blog for the world to see. And my friends to see. I feel a little exposed right now!

All I Hear Is 'Wah'

The degree of complaining on facewhinge-I-mean-book has become somewhat stupendous.

How embarrassing is it reading a blow by blow account of someone's on-again-off-again relationship with their cheating girlfriend or warts and all timeline of a first-time mother's morning sickness? I don't care if your rent is going up or you got no sleep last night. Why do you feel the world needs to know?

I understand that Facebook is a support network for many of us and whilst I agree with the merits herein, some people do take it too far.

Over-share is awkward at the best of times and even moreso when aired in the forum of social networking. Not to mention seasoning this already unsavoury dish with a whole lot of unnecessary and exaggerated FMLs. At least now it's truly bad taste, rather than just bland, right? Points to you lot for not doing things by halves!

The latest generic facewhinge posts are those complaining about Facebook itself. I guess I am stooping to this trivial level of pettiness by ranting about their ranting, but really!! It's Facebook.

Guys, you need to relax mmmkay?!

It's as though these people honestly believe that their lives are worse off because the news feed is different or they changed the chat bar. It's quite ironic that the complainants utilise the very same medium to air their disdain. Do they not see how this is quietly hilarious?

Now would you like some cheese with that whine? Well, it is Friday. Don't mind if I do!

Girl of many, many words

Most of what I have to say is boring, irrelevant and borderline irritating. Always piercing into the consciousness of those around me with my endless diatribe. Should it not speak volumes to oneself when one thinks it's okay and perfectly expected that others tune right out of the majority of his or her conversations?

I wish I could stop over-vocalising. In a wobbly moment the other day I dreamed out loud about being less annoying and my sister noted that I talk half as much as I used to. Oh dear.

I guess it's quiet time now.

Follow the lines and wonder why there's no connection

I need to quit this 'baby steps' bullshit. It's all Leaps and Bounds from here!


(Title lyrics taken from The Shins - Phantom Limb)

And it was the new music

I cannot tell you how good this feels. The one thing I have been craving, lusting after, hungrily searching for yet continually coming up from dark and lonely waters - empty handed. Finally, it has found me. My perennial navel gazing must stop here, for it is time to set the wheels in motion.

I am excited. It is a new day!

At last I have... Direction.


(Title lyrics taken from Cog - The Spine)

They Know

Sometimes I worry that my thoughts are too loud. I'm one of those people who cannot hide their expression and fear this will be my greatest undoing.

Life

"It's about glowing lights and small things that are big"

- Markus Zusak - The Messenger

It's not the same, this first world tilt train bore. I would swap it for the rundown sleepers of India in a heartbeat.

I sit here with my book and my cardboard cup, longing for the unfamiliar. A travel adventure. That feeling of culture electrocution as you're hurtling head-first into a world unknown.