Square one ain't so bad. In fact, I'm loving it. I finally feel in control, and I can tell you that it's better late than never. Truth is, I have been quite shit at life and up until recently I have flat out refused to take responsibility for it. In denial, I would blow a fortnight's pay in the Valley on a Friday night and somehow made it to every festival each season. Yes, I was having fun but wasn't exactly enamoured with my situation. This festival season I have made it to none. I could have been going to Future this weekend, but instead I am putting last week's hard-earned $$$ in an envelope I'll be handing to Mum and Dad on Thursday (twenty-seven and owing my parents money? Embarrassing, and that alone is motivation to remove oneself from a rut!). Boring indeed, however ultimately a heck of a lot more satisfying in the long run. I've had to make sacrifices and I hate making sacrifices! Festivals of all things! So, I know I deserve the sense of achievement that comes along with it. As a reward I treated myself to a new pair of shoes today, $10 flats from Big W... What a splurge, ha.
There have been times when I have heavily doubted the validity in my motives to move here. When you move back to the town you grew up in, it's hard not to feel like you've taken a step back. It's taken time (and a thick skin to shirk the attitudes of some) to realise that I have actually taken a big step forward. I loved my old life, and I miss it. But that's okay, because I also love this life. And at least this time around I am finally accountable for where I am and where I am heading. I'm going to stop to making excuses for my position in the world as at last I am becoming okay with it.
Lessons learned:
+ Patience is a virtue. It won't happen overnight, but it will happen and only if you work for it.
+ Everything happens for a reason. I already had this figured out, but damn the universe works in interesting ways. I continue to be astounded by this, sometimes these wonders are easily missed while others are colossal moments in time with jaw-dropping results. Best to avoid impulsive temper tantrums then? Refer to lesson one, my friend.
And because the title lyrics are from this song and it's all kinds of awesome (who doesn't like Faith No More? Er, Get off my blog!), I shall leave you with an old-time favourite:
There have been times when I have heavily doubted the validity in my motives to move here. When you move back to the town you grew up in, it's hard not to feel like you've taken a step back. It's taken time (and a thick skin to shirk the attitudes of some) to realise that I have actually taken a big step forward. I loved my old life, and I miss it. But that's okay, because I also love this life. And at least this time around I am finally accountable for where I am and where I am heading. I'm going to stop to making excuses for my position in the world as at last I am becoming okay with it.
Lessons learned:
+ Patience is a virtue. It won't happen overnight, but it will happen and only if you work for it.
+ Everything happens for a reason. I already had this figured out, but damn the universe works in interesting ways. I continue to be astounded by this, sometimes these wonders are easily missed while others are colossal moments in time with jaw-dropping results. Best to avoid impulsive temper tantrums then? Refer to lesson one, my friend.
And because the title lyrics are from this song and it's all kinds of awesome (who doesn't like Faith No More? Er, Get off my blog!), I shall leave you with an old-time favourite:
